Story of a lost journalist

September 24, 2008

A victim of addiction, need help

Filed under: Daily Rot — Cris @ 00:11
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A professor who teaches me said that addiction was no more a thing of drugs, like you see in older movies where victims turned violet without it. No, he said, that was a thing of the past – today’s mad men and women were produced by one little thing on top of everyone’s desk – no marks for guessing, a computer.

Another professor said that the biggest saints or munis were not those people who stood on top of Himalayas but the young people who sat before a computer from morning to evening – cause they didn’t need food or water, they sat there not letting the world know of their existence.

I laughed both times. But when I thought back – yes I am an addict too and yes I am a muni too! One day when we lost internet connection last month, I made a whole lot of fuss, barking at anyone who came across and blaming them all for this super gigantic loss! Life proceeded only when I could find a café by evening and sit there for a few minutes. And I pointed out my reasons: this was my job now! Mm yeah, right.

And the muni thing – argh true again. My mother would be the first to give testimony – she’d call me for hours to eat, she’d tell me about things and I would brilliantly miss them all even if I took a minute to look at her. Cause I find it hard to keep 2 things at a time in head. So after whatever I was doing was done, I’d try think back what she said, and then answer her, in a matter of fifteen minutes :-D. She somehow doesn’t find the whole prospect too interesting.

And sadly fact is I waste a lot of time doing that. Before, when I had a regular job, I used to find time to watch TV, movies, read books, and even browse for a while – but browsing took a short time, cause after all that monitor staring at work, I’d prefer staying away when home. And now I switch on my computer and I have no idea what I actually do all the time I have it open, but what I think was a matter of minutes would always turn out to be huge long hours. I would by end of day, realize there’s a ton lot of things I had wanted done, books past due dates, articles pending from weeks before, movies I promised myself to catch up, and a lot of other things planned to bring myself up.

Each day I decide next day would be different – I would push off switching computer to later. But next day comes and I change that to, ok I will just switch on the computer maybe do a quick go in fifteen minutes and get back to other things. Needless to say, that thought fades away the moment I see my XP loading.

I need a solution. I need an antidote. Any suggestions/help/guidance welcome! (And don’t tell me to switch from XP to Linux!)



  1. I will be surprised if you find an antidote from the guys who are reading blogs to kill time 🙂

    Well my 2.5 cents (inflation:) ) )to the matter…
    Laptop users – switch to desktop – might save some time.
    Books – not helping me a lot, i usually read while traveling.
    Board Games – This is really taking some time from all of us – our group here usually play Catan or Monopoly or even Caroms, Cards etc 5-6 hours every week
    Movie a week? Watch in big screen 🙂

    I am out of ideas already…. brain is suggesting all ideas involving a laptop… Good luck with this Ms.Cris

    Comment by aneesh — September 24, 2008 @ 03:10 | Reply

  2. Bingo sis!! Compulsive-addict here!! Despite my hectic college-schedule and Engineering curriculum, I manage to chip in a minimum of five hours before the PC. 😐 And 99% of the fights between parents and I are based on the computer! About how I’m late for dinner and all…

    So after whatever I was doing was done, I’d try think back what she said, and then answer her, in a matter of fifteen minutes :-D.
    It’s 30 minutes for me! 😛 And my dad’s FURIOUS about this!

    Antidote… Hmm… Ta dah!!
    Ask someone (your mom) to put a BIOS password in your PC. Or remove the power cord and toss it off into your backyard. Live without your PC for a week. You’ll be back to normal. Tried and tested method! 🙂 (Although you’ll return to your older self in less than a couple of days time!)

    Comment by Hari Shanker — September 24, 2008 @ 07:16 | Reply

  3. Ha ha ha
    Get another rergular job 🙂

    Comment by Bindhu — September 24, 2008 @ 09:44 | Reply

  4. “Each day I decide next day would be different”
    You have company!
    “But next day comes ….. ” and goes,
    We should have had been siblings.
    We are so alike in this case!
    do one thing cut the internet cable with a plier and go to sleep!

    Comment by Vishnu Kuttan — September 24, 2008 @ 10:33 | Reply

  5. Take a paper and write down answers to,

    1. Why do I go to a computer/What make you switch on your PC.

    2. Of the things that you did with your PC, how much you could
    have done without it.

    You will find some factors responsible to your addiction. Reconsider the weightages you give to those in your life. Keeping away from a computer is treating the symptoms, not the disease. However taking long walks may be good. Your mind wanders freely and you try to visualize, or see many things in your mind without the aid of a monitor.

    Comment by manu — September 24, 2008 @ 10:46 | Reply

  6. Sweetie, U like books, don’t u? U like movies too? Breakin the habit(er, addiction) can be a bit daunting. When u feel like plopping down in front of the computer, go watch some T.V. (whoa!don’t get addicted to those too) U’ll get the familiar screen presence. After that, take a really gud book, I mean, really, really gud book. Start reading. There might be some starting trouble, but that’s part of the pain process. U get hooked on the book, u’ll revive some of the wonders/pleasures that books can always give us. I don’t know if this works for u. I also exhibited the same(I mean, same) symptoms u described. I tried reading and my time in front of the computer have lessened(checking mail everyday is not considered as addictive, i think). Also, ‘will’ yourself to have the will power to resist. Its all in the mind dear! We have the power, We just don’t use it! If i did it, u most definitely can.
    If nothing works and the situation is dire, follow vishnu kuttan’s advice!! Gud luck chrissy!!

    Comment by M.Rose — September 24, 2008 @ 22:34 | Reply

  7. write a script that will automatically shut down ur comp 5 mins after booting it up ..( pls dont ask me how n what n all that !!).. I am pretty sure tat u wont reboot it more than 1-2 times …. 😀

    Comment by rose — September 25, 2008 @ 06:07 | Reply

  8. @vishnu kuttan

    evide etra nalla great super kidu nice all-good-words-come-here sibling illapol vere veno 😉 hehe

    Comment by rose — September 25, 2008 @ 06:09 | Reply

  9. Nothing works! I who spend 7 hours before my pc is not the best to give a remedy! 😀
    And its not a bad thing unless you are actually ‘wasting’ time. You work on that time, do some creative things like blogging.. So its not a waste of time. 🙂

    Comment by Srijith — September 25, 2008 @ 10:46 | Reply

  10. Well you are not wasting time are you ?

    Here is what i have tried .
    Commit yourself to doing something _for_ someone or _with_ someone. That would give your mind enough reason to stay away from the computer. Yeah it manipulates the guilt factor. But it does work.

    You have to plan. Go out with a friend. Agree to discuss some books with a friend or watch a movie with a friend. Promise your mom that you’d do something for her. Do stuff like that. 😉

    Comment by aashik — September 25, 2008 @ 14:06 | Reply

  11. @aneesh, right I didnt think of that! Blog-readers would likely be as busy as me :D. Already desktop, books and movies – trying now! Just got back from a movie! Thanks Aneesh!

    @Hari, 5 hours, despite your college?! Kiddo, I think you will need the BIOS password and operation power-cord more than me!

    @Bindhu, I, hereby, award you for coming up with the most brilliant suggestion! Yes only that can cure me!

    @Vishnu Kuttan, you already are one, mah sibbling :-). Internet cable eh? You have tried that? Gulp sounds like suicide!

    @manu, self-analysis and walking, got it. Err keeping away from the computer is what I want, cause keeping glued to the computer is the disease, you see.

    @M.Rose, I agree one hundred percent. Your mind is the boss of you. Mine is just a lazy one! Hmph! TV and book eh, I have simply got to try and find those things – yes yes they are pretty visible but I still manage to miss them. I should prolly place those in front of my computer!

    @rose, brilliant girl! That is a winner! Bindhu, I may have to move you to second place! Rose here just might beat you to it. And try dear, you prolly may come up with the script – its to save your Cris! And yes VK and I are bro-sis, he needs me too! Hmph!

    @Srijith, I do blog bro (as you might have noticed). Yaai so that means its not entirely wasted! But rest of the time, gulp, I’d rather not start on it!

    @aashik, sounds like a sound plan. Only problem is finding generous jobless Trivandrumites ready to sponsor a jobless blogger from boring herself!

    Comment by Cris — September 25, 2008 @ 14:51 | Reply

  12. the crazee criski is taking mileage from advertising herself to be the lazee bee;
    “I would by end of day, realize there’s a ton lot of things I had wanted done, books past due dates, articles pending from weeks before, movies I promised myself to catch up, and a lot of other things planned to bring myself up.”

    see she has no half finished articles; only full and published ones
    Read up and stone the lie-perpetrator.

    Billy boo

    Comment by Vishnu Kuttan — September 25, 2008 @ 15:30 | Reply

  13. ah, same pinch on that dudette..

    the 1st addiction I can remember of is ‘rose mints’ from the Lakshmi stores near school.. I’ve been through a looong way of addictions and de-addictions since then..

    my 2 paises: the only way to get out of an addiction is to get addicted to something else! there’s no way out. Really! 😐 Sad, no?

    Comment by usha — September 25, 2008 @ 21:11 | Reply

  14. 😮 Hindu Metro?? You?? And you wasting time??? Liaaaaar!!!!

    Comment by Srijith — September 25, 2008 @ 22:01 | Reply

  15. Don’t ask me advice on this – all I am thinking about is how do I increase the time I spend in front of my system. I gave up my job(as a programmer) so that I can sit in front of my system for a longer time!

    The only problem I have is power failures – and if the power failures extends to over an hour, my hands starts shaking. I think its beginning stage withdrawal symptom.

    Comment by Binny V A — September 25, 2008 @ 22:08 | Reply

  16. @Vishnu Kuttan, thank you little bro, you are giving me publicity, and let me thank in my blog the one who let me find that opening – my little bro VK !!! Boo Billy! hehehe

    @usha, hmm interesting. If I could find a more profiting adiction, like newspapers it would have done me good. Problem is however much I try, I am feeling absolutely no attraction to those!

    @Srijith, hehe its thanks to Vishnu Kuttan here that I could do it.

    @Binny, wow you are the other extreme! I wish I had that problem now!

    Comment by Cris — September 26, 2008 @ 14:20 | Reply

  17. Same here 🙂 I also realised I’m a big addict and is missing on other things coz of that. After that I decided to test my willpower. So now a days I login only once in 2-3 days or even longer . May be that explains my lack of activity in blogosphere. But I’m happy in a way that I’m able to read lot of books 🙂

    Comment by Dhanya — September 26, 2008 @ 22:16 | Reply

  18. @Dhanya, lovely! I wish I could do that. But the best I could do is limit to 2 hours a day! Justified in my current circumstances but I still envy you! Would love to sit in bed with books for hours! But oh dear do miss your blog posts!

    Comment by Cris — September 28, 2008 @ 14:19 | Reply

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