Story of a lost journalist

April 27, 2008

Musing on my days!

Filed under: My Musing Moments — Cris @ 07:33

Foreword: After seeing the last comment I got, I should take a vacation from blog writing for a little while! But well here I am, 7:30 AM, up and awake with a new entry.

People keep asking me what I do all day now I am jobless and home. I don’t have any one typical day to give. Each day has nothing in common with another. I’ve always found it hard to answer that question. I ask it myself – what do I do all day? Every moment I feel so occupied doing something, but end of day all those moments does not give me a single item to be added to “My deeds for the day”. I’m glad on days I attend a marriage or go for a movie cause then I have a solid answer to give. I know. The aim of my life was not to give solid answers to what-you-do-all-day. But I believe it’s important I knew!

A friend of mine recently asked me what my hobbies were and I was listing an infinite list of strange hobbies. I started with the normal ones and went onto less common ones. Ok here was my exact reply (thanks to chat logs) “well I read, I like to draw a bit, I like listening and singing along to music when there is no audience, I like talking to the mirror, I like lying down on bed and imagining giving speeches for the whole world to hear. There are too many to list”. This was after I said writing was more than a hobby. I admitted spending a lot of time on each and my friend replied “So must be kinda short of time. Now I know exactly why u quit”

That’s when I realized that I was listing out my daily deeds when he asked for my hobbies. So I was doing things I like doing all the time; things people keep aside for free-from-work time. So I should be happy; if your hobbies became the stuff you did all day, what more can you ask for? Sigh, a job!

Spending time with your hobbies doesn’t become so enjoyable unless you have a job to return to later, or better, unless it was your job! It is neither for me now.

I wish somebody paid me for sleeping 17 hours on Monday and 3 hours on Tuesday, for writing all the crazy thoughts that cross my mind on my blog, for eating when I remember I have a life running inside my body and it doesn’t run unless you feed it, for those imaginations I spend hours on. But nobody does. So at the end of each day of doing things I love, it’s still a huge cloud of unhappiness that waits for me to go sleep with. Sigh! Pessimistic tone to start a day with! So adding another line – to wake up next day (or night as it is) to new hopes, new thoughts, new ideas and to sleep in peace at the end of it. No wonder someone said life was a cycle. You wake up to sleep and you sleep to wake up!

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4 Comments »

  1. Spending time with your hobbies doesn’t become so enjoyable unless you have a job to return to later, or better, unless it was your job! It is neither for me now.

    Absolutely correct!

    Comment by Sreejith Kumar — April 27, 2008 @ 12:00 | Reply

  2. churukki paranjaal, kaaryam aaya pani onnum illa, alle ?

    Comment by Manu Punnen John — April 27, 2008 @ 15:38 | Reply

  3. 🙂

    Comment by Cris — May 13, 2008 @ 20:52 | Reply

  4. It is a blessing to be able to live the way you dream, doing only the things you liketo do..

    Now I know your hobbies 🙂

    ‘I wish somebody paid me for sleeping 17 hours on Monday and 3 hours on Tuesday, for writing all the crazy thoughts that cross my mind on my blog, for eating when I remember I have a life running inside my body and it doesn’t run unless you feed it, for those imaginations I spend hours on. But nobody does.’ How could you be so sure without asking someone? But Ask only the right One :).

    Comment by Javed Miandad — January 16, 2012 @ 22:19 | Reply


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