Story of a lost journalist

August 5, 2006

Tereasa’s story – part 2

Filed under: Fiction — Cris @ 10:36

She set out of the home. She had no idea where to go but it was a really nice day to be sitting home. It started raining. The day was getting better. She felt she had to sing loudly. She looked up at the sky and let the drops fall on her face. She tried to keep her eyes open and laughed when they kept blinking. She shook her head and let her long hair sway around. She walked singing a song to herself, blind to all the stares and deaf to all the whispers that went around her.

Bang!
Uff… ohhh do all the dreams need to end with this bang! Of course they do when I make it a point to fall down and hit the floor everytime. Maybe some day I will be as happy as I was in that dream. But right now I was just Tereasa Sally Cooper who was not good-looking, had no money, no boy friend, nothing. I looked at the violet dress I had worn yesterday to get Kevin’s attention.. All in vein. I was always going to be a glasses-wearing geek no boy would ever want to date. What the hell! Life wasnt just about boys!

“Dian Dian”
Dian came running with her Barbie.
“What are you doing?”
“Gee Terry I was playing with Michelle”
“Who is Michelle? Your new doll?”
“No she is the girl next door, Kevin’s little sister”
“Ohh”. Kevin’s sister. Now she wasnt just Michelle, the girl next door. I saw the girl. She was as pretty as her brother. Sigh..so even Dian had company. I went and washed my face. I kept looking at my desperate face in the mirror. I felt like consoling her! What a weird thought! There appeared Kevin’s face behind mine. Huh? This wasnt a movie. I turned to see Kevin standing in our living room!

“Err hullo. Is Mich here?”
I blinked.
“Michelle, my sis. Mom asked me to pick her up”
Michelle came running, Dian following her.
“Uhh Kevin can Dian come too please please. ”
“Sure why not”
He was about to turn. Then he stopped and added “Err you could come too Tereasa”
Maybe I fell in love with this new blinking game I seemed to have come up with. Cause I neither moved, nor said a word. I kept blinking.
“Oh come on Terry dont just stand there. Lets go it will be fun”. Dian sounded excited.
I had to brush my teeth. Sheesh it was 10. What will Kevin think of me.
“Err I just woke up”

“Ohh…alright.” Was there a trace of disappointment? “You can drop in when you are ready then. See ya later, err Terry”.
She heard them go.
Terry? He called me Terry? Grrr Dian!!!

This wasnt easy. With David, things seemed easier. But now I am 19. I need to be confident. I need to look good. I cant wear the violet dress again. It didnt prove good. Or did it? Had he come cause he thought I looked good?
I finally wore a jeans and pink T Shirt and got out of the house. Atleast pink said its feminine. I could hear voices in my head “you are ugly you are ugly”. This was just my inferiority complex. Hmph!
Kevin’s house was nice. I never went there before. Kevin talked a lot. I felt odd. Somehow I couldnt talk as much. I did more listening. And then he said the most horrible thing ever.
“You know what? I really like that girl Stacey. She a friend of yours?”
The blinks were back. Noooo this couldnt be happening.Wake up please this has gotta be a nightmare!
I found myself answering.
“Yea kind of”
“Do you think you could introduce me or something. I am not good in starting conversations. Heheh somehow it was easy with you. You’d make a great pal Terry”

Sigh! Terry again! And yes I make a great pal! A pal! A friend! He doesnt even seem to realise I am a girl! A g-i-r-l! I managed a smile. I didnt cry after going home. I was miserable, diappointed. But I wasnt really sad. Just angry and frustrated. That doesnt make it any better I know. But it feels good to write all this anyway. And tomorrow after introducing lover boy to Ms Beautiful Face I might as well go jump into a well! Where is my self respect!
From somewhere inside my mind a tinge of hope said “It will get better, it will”. I listened to it and shut my eyes to sleep. It was a long day.

(To be continued)

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3 Comments »

  1. hmm interesting…
    carry on n finish it

    Comment by Prem Kiran — August 5, 2006 @ 17:45 | Reply

  2. nice one der….go on and get ur book contract….

    Comment by justajester — August 5, 2006 @ 18:15 | Reply

  3. eagerly waiting for the next one 🙂
    good one dear

    Comment by kripsie — August 18, 2006 @ 17:58 | Reply


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